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Peanut Update January 14, 2010

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 8:59 pm

Peanut will be six months old next week…how did that happen so fast?! When I was holding him today I remarked to David about how he is double the size he was when we brought him home. My hand was the length of his entire body, now it’s just the size of his little bottom. He’s eating three meals a day now (loves pears, hates peas) and is 14+ pounds. He can roll over from front to back, is close to rolling from back to front, pulls up his knees during tummy time, and can sit up all by himself! He reaches for me now (melts my heart) and makes all sorts of funny noises. He laughs a lot, and hardly ever cries. He loves to play with my keyboard when he’s on my lap in front of my desk, so I got out an old keyboard so he can feel like a big boy!

The relationship we have with his birthmom has grown as well. We email at least once a week, and are really getting to be friends. She is wonderful! She has such a positive attitude and really seems to have a good head on her shoulders. I am growing to love her like family…beacuse she is. 😉

Lastest pic…sitting up on his own!


The Holidays

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 8:42 pm

It was a wonderful holiday; our first Christmas as a family. 🙂

We spent Christmas Eve at my in-law’s house. Grandpa set up an electric train and the Peanut (nickname for Nicholas from now on…) watched it go around and around. He was fascinated! I think Grandpa liked watching Peanut enjoy it more than anything…it was a wonderful moment. Christmas Day brought both sides of the family here for dinner and presents. I made turkey…two breasts instead of a whole turkey (who has the time?!) and all the trimmings. The breasts cooked in half the time and were delicious! I’ll never make a whole turkey again!

Christmas morning was just for us…Peanut opened his first present ever; a soft stuffed rainbow ball that has a bell in it. He liked it!  We rolled it back and forth to him and he laughs every time. I also got the book, “Tell Me Again About the Night I Was Born” by Jamie Lee Curtis. It’s about adoption and it’s a wonderful story. It’s a great way to talk to your child about open adoption. We are starting already so that there will never be a time that he doesn’t know about his birthmom.

We took some holiday pictures, and enjoyed the evening by the lights on the tree. Just perfect! What a wonderful way to end a fantastic year. We have been so blessed this year…and I’m thankful every minute of every day for my son, my family, and my life. Here’s to a great 2010!


Merry Christmas! December 24, 2009

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It has been a wonderful week- we finalized our adoption on Tuesday. It was the happiest day EVER! Peanut was such a good boy…no crying. We’re off to the in-laws today, then my family will be here tomorrow for dinner. I’ so excited for Nicholas’ first Christmas!!

We have so much to be thankful for…we have the been given the most wonderful gift, and feel like we are the luckiest people in the world. 🙂

To everyone who has followed our adoption journey over the last few years…thank you for your suppport and kind words. Have a safe and healthy holiday and a happy new year!!


‘Twas the night before Christmas December 18, 2009

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 11:38 am

I got this from a friend and had to share it…

‘Twas the night before Christmas,
When all thru the abode,
Only one creature was stirring,
And she was cleaning the commode.

The children were finally sleeping,
All snug in their beds,
While visions of N-64 & Barbie
Flipped through their heads.

The dad was snoring
In front of the TV,
With a half-constructed bicycle
Propped on his knee.

So only the mom
Heard the reindeer hooves clatter,
Which made her sigh,
“Now what is the matter?”

With toilet bowl brush
Still clutched in her hand,
She descended the stairs,
And saw the old man.

He was covered with ashes
Which fell with a shrug;
“Oh great,” muttered the mom,
“Now I have to clean the rug.”

“Ho Ho Ho!” cried Santa,
“I’m glad you’re awake.”
“Your gift was especially
Difficult to make.”

“Thanks, Santa, but all I want
Is time alone.”
“Exactly!” he chuckled.
“So, I’ve made you a clone.”

“A clone?” she muttered.
“What good is that?”
“Run along, Santa;
I’ve no time for chit chat.”

Then out walked the clone –
The mother’s twin;
Same hair, same eyes,
Same double chin.

“Fantastic!” the mom cheered.
“My dream has come true!”
“I’ll shop, I’ll read,
“I’ll sleep a night through!”

From the room above,
The youngest did fret.
“Mommy! Come quickly,
“‘I’m scared & I’m wet.”

The clone replied,
“I’m coming, sweetheart.”
“Hey,” the mom smiled.
“She sure knows her part.”

The clone changed the small one
And hummed her a tune,
As she bundled the child
In a blanket cocoon.

“You’re the best mommy ever;
“I really love you.”
The clone smiled & sighed,
“And I love you, too.”

The mom frowned & said,
“Sorry, Santa, no deal.”
That’s my child’s LOVE
She is trying to steal.”

Smiling wisely, Santa said,
“To me it is clear,
“Only one loving mother
“Is needed here.”

The mom kissed her child
And tucked her in bed.
“Thank You, Santa,
“for clearing my head.

“I sometimes forget
“That it won’t be very long
“When they’ll be too old
“For my cradle & song.”

The clock on the mantle
Began to chime.
Santa whispered to the clone,
“It works every time.”

With the clone by his side,
Santa said “Goodnight.
“Merry Christmas, dear Mom.
“You will be all right.”

Sometimes we need reminding of what life is all about. Especially at times
during the holiday season, when all we seem to do is clean and bake and shop
and and and and and and….You get the picture. So stop for a moment
and hug that little one so special, whether he/she is 2 months or 22 years, or
even older than that. For they are the gift that was given to us … and
what a gift to be treasured, far above any other!

May the real meaning of Christmas be with you all this year.


5 months!

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 10:09 am

Ahhh…where to begin? It’s been a busy month in our house…Thanksgiving, Christmas preparation, visits from friends and family. I just love the holidays!

I can’t believe he’ll be 5 months old on Sunday-Peanut is growing by leaps and bounds! He is laughing out loud, has doubled his weight (13# now!), and very wiggly. He can roll over from front to back, and sooo close to rolling from back to front. He pushes up on straight arms when on his tummy, and is pulling both legs up and lifting his bottom, trying to crawl already. He is also sitting up…he doesn’t need much help either. He can pull himself up to sitting from a laid-back position, and can sit forward on his hands, then pull himself back up to sitting upright. Very strong. He loves eating solid food–pears are his favorite. He opens his mouth right up and eats about a tablespoon of fruit/cereal mixed. YUM!

He sings a lot! Loves to make noises. We sing together every morning…it’s the best! He is also teething like crazy…I can feel four under the skin on top, and four along the bottom. The ped says he may just get them all at once. Some days are no problem, but he’s been waking up a lot at night, chewing on his hands and binky. Oh yeah- we aren’t swaddling him anymore, which probably has contributed to the waking. He’ll adjust…it’s all part of growing up. He kept breaking out of the swaddle and woke himself up trying several times, so we figured it was time to move on.

I love watching him try to figure things out. He’ll sit and watch me do something for a bit, then want to do it. He’s been watching me drink water from a glass, and actually REACHED out for my glass a couple of days ago. I held it up to his lips and he drank! TWICE! We’ll be on cups before you know it. He took to the spoon easily, so I hope the cup is the same.

We watch Baby Einstein on my laptop and he’s figured out that when the mouse disappears from the screen, he can tap the touch pad and it will come back. He’s already a Mac fan!

He is in awe of the Christmas tree…staring at the lights, touching the branches, and seems to really enjoy it. I can’t wait to celebrate our first Christmas as a family!


We have a date! November 18, 2009

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 10:34 pm


Can you tell how excited I am? 😀


Teething Bites!

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 10:32 pm

Nicholas started teething a couple of weeks ago and it has progressed from slight discomfort to all out pain. It comes and goes; he’ll have a great morning then wake up from his nap crying, when he would usually be smiling. He’s also not sleeping through the night (as of 5 days ago), which is hard on all of us. He wakes up around 4am fussing, and needs some coaxing to settle back down. His hands are always in his mouth now, and we go through 5 bibs a day because of the drooling.

Poor little guy! I feel so bad for him. We’re doing everything we can…teething tablets on occasion, Tylenol, and Baby Orajel. He’s actually whining in his sleep right now… 😦

The amazing thing is that it feels like he’s going to get several teeth in all at once! He turns 4 months old tomorrow, so he’s early to be teething. I feel little nubs and hot spots in his mouth…more each day! I just wish I could make his pain magically disappear. I know he won’t remember it, but I will!

We were going to start cereal this week, but since he’s having such a hard time with his gums, and we’ll have company on and off for the next two weeks, I have decided to wait. I want to keep him on his schedule as much as I can until things settle down.

So, how long can I expect this to last? Will his teeth come in soon, or will this go on for the next month or more?