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Merry Christmas! December 24, 2009

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 3:07 pm

It has been a wonderful week- we finalized our adoption on Tuesday. It was the happiest day EVER! Peanut was such a good boy…no crying. We’re off to the in-laws today, then my family will be here tomorrow for dinner. I’ so excited for Nicholas’ first Christmas!!

We have so much to be thankful for…we have the been given the most wonderful gift, and feel like we are the luckiest people in the world. 🙂

To everyone who has followed our adoption journey over the last few years…thank you for your suppport and kind words. Have a safe and healthy holiday and a happy new year!!


‘Twas the night before Christmas December 18, 2009

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 11:38 am

I got this from a friend and had to share it…

‘Twas the night before Christmas,
When all thru the abode,
Only one creature was stirring,
And she was cleaning the commode.

The children were finally sleeping,
All snug in their beds,
While visions of N-64 & Barbie
Flipped through their heads.

The dad was snoring
In front of the TV,
With a half-constructed bicycle
Propped on his knee.

So only the mom
Heard the reindeer hooves clatter,
Which made her sigh,
“Now what is the matter?”

With toilet bowl brush
Still clutched in her hand,
She descended the stairs,
And saw the old man.

He was covered with ashes
Which fell with a shrug;
“Oh great,” muttered the mom,
“Now I have to clean the rug.”

“Ho Ho Ho!” cried Santa,
“I’m glad you’re awake.”
“Your gift was especially
Difficult to make.”

“Thanks, Santa, but all I want
Is time alone.”
“Exactly!” he chuckled.
“So, I’ve made you a clone.”

“A clone?” she muttered.
“What good is that?”
“Run along, Santa;
I’ve no time for chit chat.”

Then out walked the clone –
The mother’s twin;
Same hair, same eyes,
Same double chin.

“Fantastic!” the mom cheered.
“My dream has come true!”
“I’ll shop, I’ll read,
“I’ll sleep a night through!”

From the room above,
The youngest did fret.
“Mommy! Come quickly,
“‘I’m scared & I’m wet.”

The clone replied,
“I’m coming, sweetheart.”
“Hey,” the mom smiled.
“She sure knows her part.”

The clone changed the small one
And hummed her a tune,
As she bundled the child
In a blanket cocoon.

“You’re the best mommy ever;
“I really love you.”
The clone smiled & sighed,
“And I love you, too.”

The mom frowned & said,
“Sorry, Santa, no deal.”
That’s my child’s LOVE
She is trying to steal.”

Smiling wisely, Santa said,
“To me it is clear,
“Only one loving mother
“Is needed here.”

The mom kissed her child
And tucked her in bed.
“Thank You, Santa,
“for clearing my head.

“I sometimes forget
“That it won’t be very long
“When they’ll be too old
“For my cradle & song.”

The clock on the mantle
Began to chime.
Santa whispered to the clone,
“It works every time.”

With the clone by his side,
Santa said “Goodnight.
“Merry Christmas, dear Mom.
“You will be all right.”

Sometimes we need reminding of what life is all about. Especially at times
during the holiday season, when all we seem to do is clean and bake and shop
and and and and and and….You get the picture. So stop for a moment
and hug that little one so special, whether he/she is 2 months or 22 years, or
even older than that. For they are the gift that was given to us … and
what a gift to be treasured, far above any other!

May the real meaning of Christmas be with you all this year.


5 months!

Filed under: Adoption — My Dysfunctional Life @ 10:09 am

Ahhh…where to begin? It’s been a busy month in our house…Thanksgiving, Christmas preparation, visits from friends and family. I just love the holidays!

I can’t believe he’ll be 5 months old on Sunday-Peanut is growing by leaps and bounds! He is laughing out loud, has doubled his weight (13# now!), and very wiggly. He can roll over from front to back, and sooo close to rolling from back to front. He pushes up on straight arms when on his tummy, and is pulling both legs up and lifting his bottom, trying to crawl already. He is also sitting up…he doesn’t need much help either. He can pull himself up to sitting from a laid-back position, and can sit forward on his hands, then pull himself back up to sitting upright. Very strong. He loves eating solid food–pears are his favorite. He opens his mouth right up and eats about a tablespoon of fruit/cereal mixed. YUM!

He sings a lot! Loves to make noises. We sing together every morning…it’s the best! He is also teething like crazy…I can feel four under the skin on top, and four along the bottom. The ped says he may just get them all at once. Some days are no problem, but he’s been waking up a lot at night, chewing on his hands and binky. Oh yeah- we aren’t swaddling him anymore, which probably has contributed to the waking. He’ll adjust…it’s all part of growing up. He kept breaking out of the swaddle and woke himself up trying several times, so we figured it was time to move on.

I love watching him try to figure things out. He’ll sit and watch me do something for a bit, then want to do it. He’s been watching me drink water from a glass, and actually REACHED out for my glass a couple of days ago. I held it up to his lips and he drank! TWICE! We’ll be on cups before you know it. He took to the spoon easily, so I hope the cup is the same.

We watch Baby Einstein on my laptop and he’s figured out that when the mouse disappears from the screen, he can tap the touch pad and it will come back. He’s already a Mac fan!

He is in awe of the Christmas tree…staring at the lights, touching the branches, and seems to really enjoy it. I can’t wait to celebrate our first Christmas as a family!