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This blog serves as personal therapy, stress relief, information sharing, and the occasional sanity check. Enjoy!

To Mr. Rennie… January 29, 2009

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You came into my life with a warm smile and a kind word. Always helping, always positive, with a laugh and smile on the ready.

You were always there…through tween and teen years…never wavering in your love and support.

When my father walked out, you were there to hug me, comfort me, and tell me that everything would be alright…and it was…because of you. You looked out for me and kept me safe. You let me cry in your office, laugh in your hallways, and grow into someone who was proud to be a part of something bigger. You taught me to love others as myself, give to those who need, and laugh out loud whenever possible.

You knew the face and name of everyone who passed through your halls, sat at your table, and lived in your community. The world is a better place because of you and for that, we are truly blessed.

Rest in Peace, Mr. Rennie. You will be missed.


Just passing the time… January 26, 2009

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There hasn’t been a whole lot going on over here, besides the Steelers going to the Superbowl excitement (YIPPEE!!), so I decided to make my own action. I’m bored of waiting…waiting…waiting…so I decided I would use this time to pick up some healthy habits that keep me busy. I started Weight Watchers last week. My company had a screaming deal…$100 bucks for a year for the online program. So I started last week, and I lost 3 pounds! I’m actually having fun with it…it forces me to pay attention to what I am eating, which I need. It’s easy to eat too much when you are working from home…I used to graze all day, but I guess it was adding up. I bought the complete cook book and I’m finding some really good recipes.

I am also starting a “Couch to 5k” running program. It is 9 weeks long and you start out slow…alternating walking and jogging, until you build up over 9 weeks to jog 3 miles. Since it’s so cold, I’m actually doing it at home, which is good to help build up my stamina anyway. I got some new running sneaks last week, so I’m all set! I’ll run 3 times a week, and  rest in between those days doing yoga and stretching. Time to get strong and healthy again so I can run around with my future kid!

I’m also doing crafts a lot…I have started crocheting blankets, I am making wine glass charms that I hope will be a small source of income, and I’m running a workshop at the adoption agency next week for Waiting Families. In addition, going to Rochester next week to take a one-evening class on making cannolis with my mom and sister. It should be fun! That is going to be a lean weight watchers day…I’ll probably just eat yogurt and applesauce all day to make up for the calories from the cannolis. TOTALLY WORTH IT!


I Pledge… January 19, 2009

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Tomorrow is the inauguration of our first African American President, Barack Obama. I feel proud to be alive at this time in history and more inspired by what I have seen in the last few weeks than by anything else I have seen in my lifetime. I think this must be something similar to what Americans felt when Kennedy was elected into office.

Obama promises change, and he will deliver. However, I feel that the change is happening already: we have inspiration and love in our hearts. The change that is happening and that will keep happening is US. How we think and act and feel is the CHANGE. We have a renewed faith in our country, in our neighbors, in our friends, and in ourselves. The change happens when we promise to be better people by helping each other, our environment, and our nation.

A movement has started: an American Pledge (you’ll see it on TV soon). This movement is where people pledge to do something more to help America, whether it’s planting trees, reducing waste, giving to charity, volunteering, etc. it’s all part of the CHANGE. So, as part of this movement, I ask that each of you make a pledge to do something for your country. Even the smallest action can make a big difference.

So, in my renewed spirit brought on by this momentous event, I pledge to perform random acts of kindness to those I know, and those I don’t know. I promise to reduce my carbon footprint even more than I do now, and I promise to instill these values into our (future) child.

What do you pledge?


What is a Blog?

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Blog noun. Short for web log, an online, regularly updated journal or newsletter that is readily accessible to the general public by virtue of being posted on a website. Blogs typically report and comment on topics of interest to the author, and are usually written and posted using software specifically designed to facilitate blogging; they include hyperlinks to other website and, often, photos, video clips, and the like.

Bloggernoun. One who journals online and maintains a blog.

Most of us are very familiar with blogs; we write one, comments on others, or just read them to gain insight to a person’s ideas, thoughts, or comedic ramblings. That’s why you are here, right?!

What I find fascinating about blogs is their power. They can promote an idea, crossing continents, oceans, and language barriers.  They can convey sympathy for others dealing with a specific affliction, concern, or loss. They bring people together: friends, family, long-lost relatives, as well as complete strangers.

The last one is the one that I ponder the most: a blog brings people together. I have been blogging regularly since I have started going through the adoption process. [I have blogged for a few years, but the topics were random.] What has resulted from this blog is friendship and connections that I would have never known otherwise.

I have come to find that other people going through the adoption process have seen this blog and are sharing their experiences through comments and emails.  People as near as Rochester and as far as Minnesota are going through this with me, and I with them. By posting here I can find their blogs to see how they are coping with adoption and all its trials and tribulations.

In addition, my friends from all cross the country are meeting each other through their blogs and posts, which makes me feel like we are all one big family. Case in point: I was reading my friend’s blog in Sacramento only to find that he linked his blog to the blog of an old friend of mine from New Jersey. I know they have never met in person, but they have now met virtually through postings. How cool is that?

So what does this mean, exactly? It means that a blog crosses barriers, whether they be physical, political, social, racial, etc. A blog knows none of these things. It brings people together to electronically hold hands, give hugs, shed tears, and share opinions. It gives solace and comfort, and an avenue to make new friends.

Thanks for posting your comments and giving me a glimpse into your lives. Keep ’em coming!

(Ok…now I’m singing the “I Love Technology” song from the end of Napoleon Dynamite.)


I Won! January 18, 2009

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Photo Contest

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Tifft Nature Preserve is having a photo contest. The pictures had to be taken at the preserve in the month of December and had to showcase the natural beauty and historic reclamation of Tifft. The preserve used to be a dump back in the early 1900’s. Not a dump for toxic waste or anything; more like building materials and such.  It’s quite beautiful and a nice walk on the grounds makes you feel peaceful and alive.

Anyway, I entered four pictures for the contest. They will announce the winners today at 2, so I’m off to Tifft for the afternoon. Here are my entries…wish me luck!

Tulip tree with snow

Tulip tree with snow



Sun and swamp

Sun and pond

Snowy grove

Snowy grove


Oh, my poor Uncle Steve… January 14, 2009

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Apple Inc. co-founder and Chief Executive Steve Jobs said Wednesday he is taking a medical leave until June, even though just a week ago the cancer survivor tried to assure investors and employees his recent weight loss was caused by an easily treatable hormone deficiency.

Jobs, 53, said in a letter last week that he would remain at Apple’s helm despite the hormone problem, and that he had already begun a “relatively simple and straightforward” treatment. But in an e-mail to employees Wednesday, Jobs backtracked.

“During the past week I have learned that my health-related issues are more complex than I originally thought,” he wrote.

Apple’s chief operating officer, Tim Cook, will take over Jobs’ responsibilities while he is on leave, though Jobs said he plans to remain involved in major strategic decisions.

As many of you know, my company used to be a part of Apple Computer. It was the best place I have ever worked, and Uncle Steve was good to us…damn good. I miss working for him every day and hope his health improves so he can keep leading the way in innovative technologies.  Get well soon, Steve!